fighting

pre-text: written after an entire day of physical and emotional fighting.
muse: sda
hours after hours of fighting, we surrender ourselves to exhaustion
forgetting what actually caused this chaos and commotion
we take turns to point the finger of blame
shout, scream, yell and call each other names
so many times this has happened
and so many times our relationship has ended
still we cling onto whatever's left
cause we think we love each other to death
the same old problems, the usual conclusion
we apply new rules and regulations, new terms and conditions
and hope we make it this time
sometimes i think you aren't meant to be mine
i want to let you go and be happy on your own
yet i want to be the best lover you've ever known

i limbo between holding onto you, letting all i feel inside show
and loving you and letting you go
i wish i knew the best choice
if only if my actions were as loud as my voice
i would find the courage to do
what's best for me and you.