pre-text: random thoughts collected over time...or rather several weeks...presented in prose
muse: people around me, people i have come in contact with
parents didn't give you what you need
so you put your hand out
to ask for what you want
working out and eating healthy, looking good
all just to build a shrine of a better, more perfect you
to attract followers that will worship you
living in polluted cities, eating processed foods with all the bad stuff they tell you about
then rushing off to the pharmacy and popping the vitamins and minerals
hoping to balance your body chemicals
buying pretty clothes, expensive makeup, flashy jewellery
to hide the self you are afraid other won't accept
trying to fill that empty void within
eventually becoming the empty shell you swore you would never be
searching around still for "happy ever afters"
because that is your only fighting chance
against being too jaded for a young soul
the person in front of you right now is THE one
only until the next best thing comes along
then you wonder what you were thinking then
nitpicking at anything we can get our hands on
so that we can pre-empt our reactions when shit hits the fan
should just let nature take its course cuz it's going to happen anyway
telephone, fax, email, messenger services, text messenging, snail mail, video conferences and what not
but why are we not making ourselves any clearer
i need to see you face to face to hear what you truly mean
always reminding ourself that its the small things in life that matter
the inner beauty, true colors of a person
yet we judge the way he talks, the way she walks and the car he drives
the grass is always greener on the other side
until you look over the other fence and see another greener patch
and realise grass is green no matter where it is, why not stick to your own
get rid of the old thinking the new is better
but when the novelty of it all wears off
you wish that you stuck it out with the old
you tend to hurt the ones you love most
almost testing the intensity of their love and loyalty to you
cause you know that they will stand by you no matter what shit you pull
quick to criticize the media for brainwashing, loose morals, wrong information and every other social problem
is it not a reflection of society, no doubt sometimes exagerrated
there's no way to run away from it
wanting to be like someone else because they are all you ever wanted to be
losing what you were meant to be
and never even knowing that you lost something you never had
then again i am no one to tell you all these ironies of life
when i am part of the problem
and making no effort to solve them.
